spolier alert for "the land of the painted caves"

After four books he betrays her with someone who caused her harm? How dare he! Dosent he know the ladies chosen by Doni are favored? I am totally pissed of over a book. I am seriosly shaken over a book that isnt Harry Potter. I am so frustrated! It makes me feel like there is no hope for honesty between mates. That statment is stupid knowing how much I am loved and adored but right now i am super frustrated....by a book. I need a time out.

I just had a dream about the second crush of my life. He was tall and always smelled slightly metalic. We have nothing in common but there was and is a "pull" between us. Its unnerving getting glances in the paralell universes were we ment more to each other than we do now. I always want those moments to last and relish in them, yet its painful. Its weird, I know that if either one of us just got off out butts and contacted each other and had the guts to tell about the "connection" dreams, we would both be having them at the same times. Its been over a decade since we spoke but i have no doubts on its the same with him. Fleeding moments in dreams of bliss in each other but the stern knowledge that it will not happen in this lifetime.
I would not trade anything for the person in my life right now. I could fill a terabite with gooey feelings about him. I am cared for and treated beyond any expetations. I have never been in love so deeply than I am with my chosen mate....yet...its nice to know that in the mulitverse of space and time other Joies who dont have 'boy number four' have 'second crush'.

Im moving into a house! Ive never lived in a house before. Ive lived in dorms, duplexes, apts, and quadplexes...but never a house.

Im moving with a chosen family full of people who love me and want nothing from me except love and suport from me. No motives or sitpulations just love.

I cant belive how lucky and happy i am...im just really tired and want the packing and cleaning to be over.

okay....how i look in the mirror isnt how i seem to look in film. I see myself as a curvy hot girl in the mirror, but the second i see a photo its total fail. I see my skin as blotchy and my hair frizzy and matted. I see at least 50 lbs on me and no curves or flattering features on my face. I just get flabergasted when someone tells me how good a picture is becuase if THATS a good picture how bad to i look in real life?

My facebook picture i think actually looks like me.....every pic of me on facebook other than that one i hate becuase i just dont think it looks like me. I am really bummed out over this.

im in love. Its sickly sugary sweet and makes me wretch a little.

i actually want for nothing at the moment

Joie had a zit.
Joie popped the zit.
Joie discoved the zit was actually an ingrown hair.
Joie plucked the hair.
Joie discoved the root of the hair had grown over a piece of glitter.

Glitter gives you zits!

i have never been happier my entire life.

I will not allow jelosy to damage my bliss. I will not allow outside fears shame me into being guilty for my joy. I desirve this happiness. I am unwilling to discard one love for another love and refuse to be forced to do so.

I am so happy and i wanna remain this happy as long as there is all this positve gooey glow lasts. Hopefully as long as possable.

they ruined mac and cheese.....the deviled eggs were sprinkled with sugar.....i am writting this here becuase they are on my facebook

they suck....they suck big time....im tired of being ignored or the last on adressed in the room or given the smallest portion....or left alone in a event....or dragged to be in the pressence of people who know of my husband, but dont know hes married....ive been married for 10 years.... ive only been with them for two days

the split between hardees and carl's jr is almost equal to the conidental divide

past idaho there it is no longer common for toliet covers in bathrooms

central time zone was the turning point from no offencive (or few) billboards about abortion.... to alot off offencive billoards but MN had a billboard about meth can make you turn into a prositute

seeing only white people is boring....its especially lame when you cant even play spot the mormon or count the emo boys becuase everyone looks alike. I like diversity....i mean you expect the "10 points for the one non geeky non white guy at the ren fair" game but come on non white people the west needs you! lol ......spot the goth when i lived in hawaii was my favorate game

and thats all for now more later